“Around my family and friends and always around the happiest times of the day, I would get the most annoying negative intrusive thoughts; thoughts that are very evil. Thoughts that are logical but nevertheless out of place. I would be sitting in the most peaceful place up in the mountains, surrounded by trees and nature, but my mind was anything but that. I was continuously thinking of details that happened that day, analyzing them and wondering what I could have done better. This would take out all my night until the thoughts accumulated into obsessions. I would think and think and repeat and feel out of control and think some more, until finally I would feel the power of the thought on my body. My heart would be racing. I would feel dizzy and out of breath. Things were amplified; noises were louder and people were scarier. Family would come to see what’s going on, but it only made me feel worse.”